THE END

I left Provo on Wednesday.  I'm pretty sure forever.
The night before I left Susan and I went to get gelato like we did this summer, but our gelato shop was closed, so we went to the frozen yogurt place under Alpine Village. We had the best chat! We've both left Provo at this point, so it was really bittersweet. She's going to Spokane Washington on her mission and she reports to the mtc in February, so she'll be away from Provo till 2011. I on the other hand probably wont live in Provo again, whether or not I get my bachelors from BYU. But no worries Susan, we're going to be friends for a long, long time. You were exactly the kind of friend Heavenly Father knew I was going to need and I'm so glad we've been able to be there for each other!
Wednesday was a crazy day! I had most of my stuff packed up in boxes but still had my cleaning stuff to do. I got up three hours late and ended up failing my cleaning check (oops...). Then I had to sell my books back ($160!) and I made sure to grab a power bar because the last time I shipped all my stuff home I didn't eat anything until about 6 pm after running between my dorm and the bookstore all day (not good). When I got back to my apartment I had about half an hour to get all my stuff packed and into Kabria's car. Luckily my wonderful visiting teachers (Katie and Karissa) and our new Relief Society Pres (Jessica) came to my rescue! Jessica cleaned my refrigerator for me (Bless her soul)! And some boys came to help take my boxes to Kabria's car. Long story short I got all 6 of my boxes shipped and by the time I got to the airport I just barely made it through security and walked straight no to the plane. Ouff! It was pure insanity! And then I left Utah. Hello California!

4 more days

Not even four... 3.5.  Huzzah! I can't wait to get out of Provo!  I can't wait for the next part of my life to begin! Disney and then Pastry School!  Oh what a glorious feeling!  I was at a shin-dig last night sharing some tartlets and people loved them! I love making tartlets!  I love when people love the food I make! I love when people tell me I'm making the right decision by going to pastry school.

To celebrate my last four(ish) days in Provo, here are four things I learned on Thursday (I was going to make a longer list that day, but I wrote the first three at about 2 pm, after that things sort of went down hill) :
Computer Science Majors are and (judging by their professors) always will be really nerdy.
The people who work in the music library watch [and love] Bollywood movies.
If you go on the Disney College Program you will hold Disney second only to the Gospel for the rest of your life.
Kaitlynn is not the only one who has a hard time eating when she gets broken up with.

Melancholy

So I said "see you sometime..." to a few friends today.  It was nice chatting with them, but when I think about the fact that I could very well not see them ever again...well, it wasn't my favorite feeling.  And considering they were friends I don't see all the time, I don't know how I'm going to deal with saying see you to those friends that I hold most dear.   All I can say is THANK GOODNESS for technology!  Facebook, e-mail, texting, calling...I'm this close to getting skype.  

I can't believe I'm leaving Provo in a handful of days.  It feels SO unreal!  On the topic of leaving Provo, I'm starting a new blog that will be applicable to my life not in Provo.  It's still under construction but I should have it all pretty and ready for reading by the time December 16th comes around.


I'm done with classes.  Now, all I have left to do is pack, bake, and play with friends...  Ugh, sorry this is such a sad post! I promise there is happiness in my life right now!  For example: Last night, FHE was a success!  And to top it off I have about 20 pages of Christmas themed coloring pages to color in.  Trust me, that is happiness enough!  (though not all)

So...there's this boy...

and, in case you hadn't heard, I like him.

On a slightly different note...
I bought a duffel bag today.

This means I have to start packing for thanksgiving, which means I need to decide what I can live without for the few weeks after the break.  Just another reminder of my impending departure from Provo.

When I separate myself from recent events in my life, I'm ecstatic.  When I don't...I have to remind myself of the blessing/huge opportunity it is for me to be going to intern for Disney.  I know going to Florida is the right thing for me to do.  I also know that life is funny and I was silly thinking that I could leave Provo without a hitch.  Because life doesn't work that way.

To deal with the small stress this has caused me I have been baking.
Yesterday, I made some banana bread for my apartment, and really yummy chocolate cookies for this boy.
Today I started working on a delicious cake for my friend's birthday party.  Basically, it's a cheesecake wrapped in a chocolate cake covered with butter cream frosting. Yummmmy  Thank you Paula Dean for the cheesecake recipe/idea (minus the liqueur).

Ladybugs

So I have this theory that one of the ways Heavenly Father likes to cheer me up is by sending me a ladybug.  It hasn't happened often enough to be entirely sure, and it is definitely not his only way of reminding me of his love for me, but I'm not complaining.  I love ladybugs.  They're such a sight for sore eyes!  I can think of three specific times I have "received" a ladybug in return for a particularly trying time in my life.  They usually come when I'm not even thinking about all my problems.

1. Freshman Year - It was around finals time.  I was probably stressing about all the end of the year stuff: finals, packing, etc.  Then one day I was studying with my good friend outside the BNSN and I found this beauty crawling around on the grass.  It kept me entertained [distracted] for some time before it flew off.

2. Spring term - I was walking home from campus and I looked down to see a cute little hitchhiker on my shorts.  At the time I was probably most stressed about my future plans, and I remember being really grateful for having something to distract me from my tomoltuous thoughts.

3. Tonight - So this is the most bizarre of the three.  I've been having a bit of a rough week (not related to my previous post).  I got home really late from chatting with some friends and then remembered I had to remake my bed.  I (being the rude roommate I am) turned on the light to see better, and as I was stretching out my bottom sheet what should I find but a ladybug!  Seriously, I am still confused about where it came from.  I thought about keeping it until the morning to show my roommates, but decided to not risk waking up to a dead ladybug.

I cherish these times I am reminded of Heavenly Fathers love.  For some reason these little guys remind me that life goes on and the hard times I'm having are only temporary (much like my time spent with the ladybug).

ps I think this might be a little sappy/incoherent but it's almost 3 in the morning...what do you expect?
pps I'm really serious about my rough week not being related to my previous post.  The latter came out of exasperation from not having (or eavesdropping on) a single conversation that did not somehow get turned to dating and marriage.

Dating...

I'm sick of hearing about it, talking about it, thinking about it, praying about it... Hmmm, probably didn't help that I watched Vivah.  However, instead of ranting, I will sum up how I've been feeling over the past 48 hours (ish):
I am ready for a break from Provo and all its Provo-ish tendencies.


But I will [happily] return next fall!

Guess who's fulfilling their childhood dreams starting in January

So yesterday was not a very fun day for me. I got three hours of sleep.  All of campus closes down for devotional/forums.  I got kicked out of the location I chose to nap through the hour for "repairs". I spent 11 hours on campus and still had more homework to finish before midnight.
But there were definitely some good things that did happen.  I finished all of my block classes.  I watched a movie in history class.  Oh and, I got into the Disney College Program.  OK, that's probably not a surprise to you if you're reading this.  But I am so excited!!!  I'm going to be working Attractions at Disney World.  I get to Florida January 20th and the program lasts till August 6th.  Its a long program, but I feel so good about going!  I feel kind of silly taking time off of school since I have so much time left to get through my major, but I've rationalized that: a) this will actually help me in the long run (I want to do their professional internship for my senior internship), and b)if I'm here for a long time, I might as well make it a tiny bit longer and get out of Utah.  Needless to say, since I became aware of the fact that people actually work at places like Disneyland it has been my dream to work there.

Now all I have to do is focus on school and figure out what to do with all my junk here in Provo. Ha, like I'll be able to focus on school.  I couldn't sleep till 1:00 am last night despite the lack of sleep Monday night.  I don't think I've ever been this amped to work in my life.